‘Het is voorbij’

Hilaria kreeg vorige week te horen dat de hartslag van haar baby niet sterk genoeg was. Ook zou het kindje niet goed groeien. De kans op een levensvatbare baby werd daardoor klein ingeschat. Inmiddels heeft Hilaria op Instagram gedeeld dat haar zorgen terecht waren; ze heeft een miskraam gehad. ‘Er was geen hartslag bij mijn scan vandaag, dus het is voorbij. Maar ik heb een paar sterke en geweldige hartslagen hier’, schrijft ze bij een foto van haar, Alec en hun vier kinderen. ‘Ik ben omringd door zoveel liefde en ik voel me heel bevoorrecht.’

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‘Samen staan we sterker’

Hilaria laat weten veel steun te krijgen uit de reacties op haar openheid. “Ik was ontzettend nerveus om het te delen en ik ben zo opgelucht dat het met zoveel liefde is ontvangen. Bedankt voor het luisteren, voor jullie steun en voor het delen van jullie eigen persoonlijke verhalen. Samen staan we sterker.”

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There was no heartbeat today at my scan…so it’s over…but I have some pretty strong and amazing heartbeats right here. I am surrounded by such love and I feel so fortunate. Thank you all for listening, for your support, and for sharing your own personal stories. We are stronger together…I hope this conversation continues to grow and that we stick together through both the beautiful and challenging moments in life. Much love and appreciation to all of you 💜

A post shared by Hilaria Thomas Baldwin (@hilariabaldwin) on Apr 9, 2019 at 4:12pm PDT

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I want to share with you that I am most likely experiencing a miscarriage. I always promised myself that if I were to get pregnant again, I would share the news with you guys pretty early, even if that means suffering a public loss. I have always been so open with you all about my family, fitness, pregnancies…and I don’t want to keep this from you, just because it isn’t as positive and shiny as the rest. I think it’s important to show the truth…because my job is to help people by being real and open. Furthermore, I have no shame or embarrassment with this experience. I want to be a part of the effort to normalize miscarriage and remove the stigma from it. There is so much secrecy during the first trimester. This works for some, but I personally find it to be exhausting. I’m nauseous, tired, my body is changing. And I have to pretend that everything is just fine—and it truly isn’t. I don’t want to have to pretend anymore. I hope you understand. So, this is what is going on now: the embryo has a heartbeat, but it isn’t strong, and the baby isn’t growing very much. So we wait—and this is hard. So much uncertainty…but the chances are very, very small that this is a viable pregnancy. I have complete confidence that my family and I will get through this, even if the journey is difficult. I am so blessed with my amazing doctor, my dear friends, and my loving family…My husband and my four very healthy babies help me keep it together and have the perspective of how truly beautiful life is, even when it occasionally seems ugly. The luck and gratitude I feel that I am my babies’ mommy, is wonderfully overwhelming and comforting. In your comments, please be kind. I’m feeling a bit fragile and I need support. I’m hoping, that by sharing this, I can contribute to raising awareness about this sensitive topic.

A post shared by Hilaria Thomas Baldwin (@hilariabaldwin) on Apr 4, 2019 at 6:47am PDT